Sunday, March 27, 2011

BOOOMM!!! CRASH!!!! dribble, dribble, dribble...

Yes a thunderstorm is going on outside and I can't sleep. So, that means blog time. I actually got some math done today! Whoo hoo! But basically... the past few days have been nothing but work and sleep. Is spring break here yet? Wait, school starts tomorrow? DANG IT!

Church was so refreshing, as always. I needed a refresher. God is so good to me, and I hope to someday project his endless love to others like he does to me. An interesting question was raised in church today though. The sermon was on Christians and politics. I find it funny how they call Republicans "the Christian right" sometimes. I have friends who aren't Christian who are Republican, and I have friends who are not Republican who are Christian (myself included, by the way). It got me thinking. You can't really put labels on people (of course i've known this for a long time but society hasn't apparently). I mean look at me. I am an independent, not Democratic or Republican. Not liberal or conservative. I'm a mix of everything: jock, tomboy, band geek, even a little punk at times. I defy authority and I respect it. I can be at a mature gathering with people twice my age, then go out and buy LEGOs or yu-gi-oh cards. My point is, labels are just that. labels. You can stick a label on someone, but that doesn't mean they fit the description or like that you put that label on there. People can't be labeled, and you have to look past the outside and see the beautiful person inside.

Here inlies the reason why I want to go into special ed. Aspergers is a label. Heck Autism is a label. You talk to a kid, and they're hyper, won't meet your eyes, and stutter alot, you automatically think, Autism. But there's more to that kid than just Autism. They could be a mathematical genius, or have an I.Q of 185, or just be the sweetest, most loving kid you'll ever meet, once you get to know them and they are comfortable with you. So here today, I have a challenge for you. Look at someone you've "labeled". They don't have to have an ASD or even a mental condition at all. It could even be someone you pass in the school hallway or at work and think, wow she's a prep, or jeez, he looks so emo, and try to get to know them. See them in a different light. I guarantee you won't be disappointed.

Hmm... sounds like the thunder has calmed down a little. Bedtime for me!

Friday, March 25, 2011

question for everyone

Well, first, news update. I had an AWESOME time hanging out with my good buddy Roger. We went to toys r us today, and it was GREAT. It brought out my inner kid, especially when we checked out the LEGOs. However, I suppose my inner kid is not too hard to bring out anyway.

Now, onto the question. Despite being an Asperger's kid, and despite how much Asperger's has affected my friendships, I can say with reasonable conviction that it hasn't affected my romantic relationships much. Perhaps it's the fact that when I get that comfortable with someone, it's really easy for me to be myself. And, as a possible effect of Asperger's, I analyze situations TO DEATH, mostly so I know how to react should a particular outcome arise. Well, I was walking through Books A Million today, and saw TONS of tables with self-help books for relationships, and the vast majority of them had to do with making a relationship last. My question is, why do we need a book on that? Basically succeeding in a romantic relationship requires 2 things:

1. BE YOURSELF. If you are yourself, then that other person can love and appreciate you for who you are. Say what you feel like saying, go with your gut. You want to send that flirty text, SEND IT! But you also have to...

2. USE SOME COMMON SENSE. Maybe part of the problem is that common sense is not so common. But seriously, say you hear a rumor that your partner's cheating on you. Your initial reaction would be to totally blow up at your partner, no? But think back. Has your partner been good to you? If yes, then it's just a stupid rumor, no need to worry about it. But if you blow up at your partner, they're not going to understand, and they might get defensive, causing a huge fight and *gasp!* a breakup! Use some common sense and maybe it won't be that way.

Is that really so hard? If you are being yourself, the friendship part comes naturally. You know what you're comfortable with and what you're not, so it's easy to set boundaries and slowly take them down as the relationship progresses. But people worry over what the other person is going to say. What if he/she doesn't like me? What if he/she thinks I'm weird because of X, Y, or Z? Well let me tell you something. If they don't like you for you, and can't appreciate your strengths and weaknesses, your strong points and shortcomings, and all your weirdness, then they aren't the person for you.

Well, enough lecturing for one day. Comment your agreement/disagreement! :D

Thursday, March 24, 2011

(insert witty title here)

Well, yesterday was pretty uneventful. I went driving for the last time before I get set free! And I went to a comic book store that sold an amazing amount of Yu-Gi-Oh cards! I. Need. To. Go. Back. SOON! THEY HAD THE THREE EGYPTIAN GOD CARDS THERE!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

Ok, now that my Yu-Gi-Oh rant is out of the way.... Well I can't figure out anything to say. Except that boys seem to make life confusing for you at the worst possible times. THE WORST POSSIBLE TIMES.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

on the road again

It has been a really busy two days! For everyone who doesn't know, I lost my license for six months due to seizures, and then went through some crap with the paperwork the state makes me fill out every year. So yesterday was the first time I had been on the road in about 9 months or so. It was so liberating to finally be able to drive again! Today was my first experience on the highway. That was interesting to say the least. I don't like highway driving, having to get on and off the highway freaking stinks. I'll get used to it I suppose. I have to if I want to go away to school, especially if I go to Huntingdon and not Bama. So the next five months are gonna be practice, practice, practice as it gets ingrained into my brain.

I got yu-gi-oh cards today! And some good ones too! Stardust Dragon is amazing, once I make a deck that fits more with the times, he's going in. And I got some awesome Flamvell monsters for my Fire deck. All you duelists out there, you best look out, cuz i'm gonna be beating you with my pre-synchro monster fire deck!

I'm going to Huntingdon April 7th and 8th for an ultimate preview day. It's so intense it's almost like orientation! It lasts two days, I'm really excited, but also sooo nervous! My chance to beat my asperger's is almost upon me. I need to do this for myself, to make me a better person, but it's definitely going to be hard. In fact, it will be one of the hardest things I've ever done. But I shall emerge the victor!

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Sunday, March 20, 2011

here we go...

Well, here it is. My first blog in over three years. I must say, I've missed blogging and I'm excited to start again. Also, I may play around with the title of the blog and stuff like that for awhile until I find something that fits all the main ideas of this blog.

Today is officially the start of spring break. However, when you have all online classes, spring break doesn't mean much to ya. The deadlines are hard and fast, and I almost have to study over spring break if I want to pass math class.

Alot of this blog is gonna be about my journey to overcome aspergers, so here is the first taste of that. When I first signed up for classes this semester, I was excited to have all online classes. Since my dad works nights, I thought I wouldn't have to get him up to drive me to school, which was a major plus for me. Plus I am a night owl, and taking all online classes meant I could get up as late as I wanted to. But life has been so boring lately! I stay at home most of the time, I don't have a ton of friends to hang out with, and school provides no variety. Not to mention, for a person with aspergers, teaching myself is nearly impossible, especially with math class. I have found that I learn much better in a classroom enviornment, where the teacher explains the material and I have a chance to ask questions. Teaching myself trigonometry is possibly one of the hardest things I have ever done. Oh well, you live and you learn, right?

I wish these schools would get back to me! It is hard being in a constant limbo, not knowing where I'm gonna be in six months. Huntingdon College gave me a $10,000 scholarship, but their tuition is $30,000. Oh please bama, give me something! And soon!